smileyjess

(freaked out, insecure, neurotic, emotional)

well it's super early, but i have a pretty busy day so i figured i'd fill you in on yesterday. it was a good afternoon, i read for a long time, showered, then slept. matt was 13 minutes early, so of course i was still asleep when he arrived. we decided to hit up the older, but less crappy theater to see the italian job

jess's review: i love ed norton, so by association, i heart this movie. even though ed was the bad guy, and even though he had that awful mustache thing, and even though the acting wasnt top quality, i still thought it was good. marky mark was also in it, and he rocks my socks. mannn he's got gunnnnns. (did you get your tickets to the show/what show?) so really i dont know what to tell you. if you like ed norton, you may be a little disappointed, but if you love fight club as much as i do, then you'll like this movie. extra bonus is mark. so it's worth you money, i'd say.

los mcmani were also there with their entourage (matt, kev, kayleigh [yeah, still dont know if i'm spelling it right]. kim, larson [? whatever her boyfriend's name is...?], andy, joe, ted, and 2 other random people that i cant remember the names of right now) so we all went to ruby tuesday's after. it was jolly good! hilarity ensued as usual. (this time involving a joke about two fives for a ten, some malt vinegar and sprite, and of course matt and kev's badass arrival in the new car with the new licenses!!!)

i love the rain. like i've been complaining about it a lot, i know. but last name it was a pouring, drenching type rain and i love that. none of this puny wimpy misty rain. but now it is really time for the sun. i need a tan for el prom.

after i came home, i watched the saturday night live rerun of ashton kutcher and fiddy. i heart ashton. that opening monologue? in his tighty whities?

after i couldnt really get to sleep, so i finished catalyst. good book. easy read, though. it says it for high school, but i dont know. i only read it for the chemistry, let's be honest.

on tap for today: church, confirmation rehearsal, christening, party, and hopefully school senior arts day thingy.

today went by without much happening. mi padre y yo had a brief argument this morning. did i mention that my mom is away for the 3rd of the past 4 weeks? yeah thats right. now she's in dallas, which i didnt even know until this afternoon, a full 36 hours after she left...

then i was bummed because i had short period chemistry. i got a 99 on the test from yesterday. score. i

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ok

sorry. i just thought of something i hate

i POSITIVELY HATE IT when people start a conversation in the middle. like they just assume you know WHAT THE HELL they're actually talking about. like what is that?! obviously, i have no idea what you're talking about, so stop trying to tell me about it by starting in the middle. i'm not sure if you know what i'm talking about here... its kind of like the opposite of when people start to tell you something, then halfway through decide not to, except this is worse because they do not even START.

(two points for honesty)
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hope that my chem average is really high this quarter because the exam's a bizotch.

also i did well on my algebra 2 "twiz" yesterday, so thats good. i'm doing a lot better in the 2nd half of this quarter than the first... the first half was just downright bad bad bad.....

no religion today due to the cambodia pegasus presentation. it was amazing. i need to go to cambodia now. i would love to just go and help out all those poor kids. it's insane. i feel compelled to help now. so i added another life goal today: visit cambodia on a mission to help in any way i can. i told rye, and he said it's a great idea to stop there as we make our way around the world

liz got her license today! :) which means.... beach!!! ((yay liz!))

once this stupid rain goes away.

only 3 more days of classes, which means only 2 more alg2 classes, and only 2 more history classes, and only 2 more religion classes.

i can so do this.

help.

(and closer than most to you and what am i supposed to do? >>rhcp)

i guess today was good. not many bad things happened. i stood up to hermano today! he was like jess please recite what i just said.... and i did! word for word, the last 2 sentences he said. he didn't quite know how to react. he was like ok well if you can daydream and lsiten to me at the same time, then................ go ahead.he always seems to think i'm spacing in and out in that class for some reason. maybe it's because i am just very afraid of participating in that class because i do not want to draw attention to myself at all. so i never make eye contact.

whatever i dont care. 110 more minutes of class, plus another 110 more of exam. but at least i dont have to listen to him during the exam. and only 55 more minutes of history!!!!!!!!! just thinking about it puts me in the best mood!!!

also today hmm... it rained for about the 389147819 day in a row. and the bus driver made me walk in it. gracias; de nada. i got my yearbook. i'm actually in it! haha i made the cross country page which is effing hilarious considering the fact that i suck. also stuff for pep band. (awwwwwwww pep banddddddddd~!)

i fell asleep around 3 o clock for an hour and a half or so. then i finished up my paper for english on mother night. its so shitty im almost embarassed to hand it in. but i just dont have the time/patience to rewrite it, so... so... i'm lazy and thats that. then i practiced my guitar for over an hour. its so amazing. i remember in like 7th grade when i thought a half an hour was forever and today i didnt even look at the clock. i'm so in love. i just wish i was better. pat wants to buy my electric, so we'll see about getting that orgasmically delicious schecter or the equally delectable godin. *sighhhhhhhhhh* money.

went to shel's school for a spring concert thing. it was cute. i dont miss my old school. it has changed so much since i went there with rye and the crew. oh man.

i dont know what else to tell you except that im tired (what's new?), wont be able to sleep, and i'm stressed.

i hope you can at least have sweet dreams this evening though.

exams this week.... i cant say ill be posting much.... heres a quick recap of the past few days

friday was prom with mattie. that went well. it was at the hyatt on goat island in newport. friday was also my last day of classes for sophomore year... craziness- i'm halfway done! i could have left early like the rest of the prom-goers but i had *chem* last period and there was no way i was going to miss that!! so i stayed all day, then had my hair done, then home, dressed, pictures, dance. blue midnight special played. ophelia as well, but BMS was amazzzzzzingggg, although i could just be biased... :) ill try to post some pictures up here once i figure out how to.

in the wee hours of saturday morning i watched an hour of the new real world season-- it looks like its going to be a good one, folks!!! i went to sleep around 4, and was up again by 9. to. study. ugh. all day yesterday i did spanish, chem, and religion. im not even looking at history. ga-bahhhh (liz ta$h). at night i had my confirmation. it went well. i had to read but it was sucky. :( afterward we had a lot of people come over so that was cool. everyone left around 10 or so i think. at this point i was exhausted. so i went to bed by 1030.

woke up 12 hours later, and i've been studying for algebra two ever since. oh, with a brief break for a trip to gc. thats it though. it's crazy, and im so worried. tomorrow is g and f periods. g is my study/gym so i'm going to use that time to go over alg2 again in the morning, then the exam from 11-1. home, study for rel and hist on tuesday.

i'm off to take a break from alg2.... and study for spanish.

que triste

hola chicos y chicas que esta`n leyendo mi diario!
(possibly that makes no sense...)

so... things have been a little crazy... exams all this week. alg2 was monday, i cant even remember how that went (also: inverse of f(x) = x/x-1? huh?)... then yesterday i had uhh history and religion. history's ass was kicked by moi, but religion... eh... not so much ass kicking. today was chemistry and english. chem was wicked scary. english was ok (sucky questions... come on hermano! the member of the wedding? raise your hand if you really read that thoroughly), but nothing i couldnt bs my way out of, i guess. i know i did well on vocab. but that's not hard at all. tomorrow is my last exam - el examen de espan~ol. i've been "studying" all afternoon, sort of. it's okay, i think. like... i don't really start to absorb what i'm looking at until around 9 or 10 because thats when the stress sets in. a nice thought: this time tomorrow, i'll be done. in fact... i'll be done in 17 hours. perdy sweet.

i got my summer reading list today. ap english- 6 books- obadiah. i think i can handle it. i hope i can handle it. one of them i've already read- nickel and dimed by barbara einrich. rach and i also saw that play at trinity rep. others include: writing down the bones by natalie goldberg. next: the future just happened by michael lewis, the bluest eye by toni morrison, and animal liberation by peter singer.

i guess ill just have to make use of the car trips to vegas, san fran, and mexico. (2 weeks!)

in my procrastination yesterday, i managed to learn 2 new songs para mi guitarra. rhcp and ff.

i just realized that those summer reading books could make a dent in my schecter pt custom fund (motto: "Donate Today!")

ok guys one more exam. i got this.

oh man

school's over.

no more dreading english, no more memorizing useless outlines of history only to forget them the second i write them down on the test, no more "handy" straightedges and/or charts, no more lack of sleep, no more mornings with the weird kids in my hallway playing with their freaking cellphone rings, no more BRB, and (sniff sniff)...... no more chemistry

how does it feel now that sophomore year is over? exactly the same as when sophomore year was not over. i dont really think that me going from being a sophomore to a junior is all that significant. i mean, im not graduating, i still have 2 more years. but then im like whoaaa... we're all going to be upperclassmen now... and my friends that do sports are going to be getting a lot more varsity playing time, and junior year is pretty important, right? and well finally be able to eat lunch at a halfway decent time! and really it's only like a year and a half left because after you send in your college apps, how much does anything you do thereafter really count for? we'll have our junior prom next spring, and... and well i think things are just going to be a lot of fun this coming year. i hope so. soph year was excellent, in my opinion. i hope things stay the same. (i also hope that if i do cross country this year i dont suck too badly) whatever i'm kind of fluctuating back and forth between topics here. bear with me, or just don't continue reading. it's really your choice.

something from shannon that was amusing:
How You Know You've Been A Sophomore Too Long:

~ You've tried to whistle and hum at the same time.
~ Cinnamon rolls became a part of your daily diet.
~ You look forward to La Catrina at the end of every Spanish chapter.
~You've built so many rockets you never wanna look at soda bottles again.
~ Every few days at least 5 people in your homeroom go crazy trying to memorize, word for word, five pages of notes.
~ You're memorizing "handy" charts.
~ You're algebra substitute knows you by name and face.
~ You're saving up money to buy "THE BUS"
~Heck, you're even praying for "THE BUS"
~ You voted for Danny Mountain
~ Before lunch, you always make sure that you're tucked in.
~ You rigged your locker so it can open without the combination

so exams went.... well, they just went, i guess. we'll see how i did in a couple of weeks. i wont be here when i get my report card. (snaps fingers) darn. i know i got a 91 on chem. ok, i know i love chem, but it's not like i just automatically know stuff, so i studied quite a bit on tuesday night. then i took the exam on wednesday morning. i swear, i looked down at the first page and i knew 4 out of 11 or 12 questions. like, i just wanted to cry. it was awful. i was so stressed after i handed it in, and i still had to go to (shudder) english. i spent at least 10 minutes of my english exam trying to figure out what was the lowest grade i could get in chem and still get honors with distinction. (answer: 84) i didn't think i was going to even get a low 80. i have no idea where the 91 came from... he probably has slysdexia and meant "19"

whatever. enough about school! summer! too bad the weather is still sucking it up over here in lil rhody. come on! come on!!!!!! :)

so how am i going to spend my first day of vacation? i think im just going to sit around on my ass, maybe drag it for a 4 mile run, then shower, then sit around on it again.

sounds like a plannnnnnnnnn. i hope that maybe i can fit some more sleep into that busy schedule!!!

i already started reading one of my summer reading books. the bluest eye.
and....

i like it too.

ok, sorry. had to be honest.

today was one of those perfect days. spent the night over liz's with rach last night. for dinner mr and mrs t took the three of us plus joe and his girlfriend katie to wright's chicken farm. so yummy. liz recently got her license and we were eager to go for a drive and see a movie, but then we realized there wasnt anything really all that good that we hadn't seen yet. so we stayed in, set up the cot and spare mattress in the living room and watched.... fight club!!! liz had not yet seen it, and, sadly, she did not like it much. rachel confessed to not liking it at first either. me? fan from the first viewing. i just love that movie. but i've realized that... for a movie thats supposedly an outcry against consumerism, there sure is a ton of product placement. also, yesterday afternoon, i got to watch empire records. such a great movie. but dont worry. i didnt sit on my ass alllllll day. :) hey leave me alone! it's summmmmmmer. french toast for breakfast. i love big breakfasts like that, dont you? not until this past winter did i become a big cereal fan. prior to that i was more a poptart person. now just give me a bowl of crunchy granola (trader joe's pecan praline, thank you very much!) and i'm happy.

liz dropped me off after breakfast and then... my mom and i went shopping. this does not occur very often, maybe once a year, tops. i like to think of myself as pretty independent... i do not ask my parents for money all the time, and instead save up all mine and spend on anything i want, usually clothes. i'd say a good 90% of my clothes in my closet i have bought with my own money. so when my mom suggested she'd take me and get some stuff for ***california*** (12 days), i jumped at the opportunity. i have been extremely reluctant to spend any of my money from christmas and confirmation because i want that schecter with just about every ounce of my being. but i desperately needed some new clothes. so we hit up gc and the mall. it was not really a good day, so we were shpping for a good four hours. and it honestly wasnt that bad. and i'm really happy that i finally got some new clothes. we went to eastern mountain sports and stocked up a some hiking gear. such a great store!!! i think i'm going to apply there when i get back from california. employee discounts are pretty sweet. i also got another book at borders. i have so much reading i want to do this summer!

wow that story sucked. oh, and then i found five dollars. :)

tonight... we had to go over my grandfather's to sort out some stuff that was my grandmother's. that was kind of.... depressing... shrug. it's something that has to be done though. we're giving away a lot of it to charity, so that's good.

i don't really know what else to say. except that tomorrow i am sleeping in. and that makes me happy. jess hearts sleep. i figure that i have 12 days until california, but it's really more like 6 because i plan on sleeping about 12 hours a day!

sidenote: seeing as how i'm too cheap to pay $13-$20 on the new radiohead cd, if any of you would... ohhh... i dont know... maybe feel like burning me a copy, i will love you forever and always.

later loves

(a real quote from a conversation.)

can't write much... it's too early... but i have to get ready to 'beach it upppppp' with brothers lonardo and john.

today's an important day. it's el birthday de knasty. or at least, i think it is. if it is not, i'm still celebrating today. i've narrowed it down to one day this month, and i'm pretty positive it's today. but like. it could be tomorrow. or the 22nd or 23rd. or the 19th. he's pretty vague about it. maybe one day ill find out for sure.

today is also important because it's hendi's last day of exams! yay rye! good luck on chemistry; you'll do fabulously, love. c, c, and f.

ok the moment of truth. jess in a bathing suit.

good thing it's too cold to swim. (why oh why do i have this image of matt and kev in their boxers???? hahahahaha)

so this weekend i've been kind of upset over the loss of my bob marley cd (legend). i've had that thing for my whole life. it was my dad's. i don't know where it could be. yesterday i went through 72 cd cases looking for it. later today i'm going to tackle my parents collection. i'm so distraught over this. i have the case, but not the cd. i brought that thing to my pre school show and tell. from then on, my teachers thought my parents were the biggest stoners. trust me though- they're not.

so anyways. i took this quiz thing to 'see who i am.'

i'm bob marley. fuck, look at my dreads!!!!!!! i want those!!!!!!!!

You are Bob Marley!


Who are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

an excellent day. hit the beach with andy john y mike early this morning- 830, 9ish. it wasnt a good beach day at all but we paid to get in so we were determined to stay. very cloudy, a bit chilly, freezing cold water, but it was still a lot of fun. they thought maybe it'd be cool to bury my hair in the sand. let me assure you, it was not!! then we ran into like a million people. nubes, steph g., bianca s., matt m,. chrissy and matt kulig, some guy named sean, joe graz, sean l., keith, gogan, kenny, another girl i dont know her name, and probably a few more. plus someone in my class was having a party at the beach and invited all the cool kids (read: jess was not invited) so i got to see liz and rach and kieran and blake for a few milliseconds. then after "team bad" won the volleyball game that never ends, we packed up and left and andy drove me home for around 2-230 ish i guess. the afternoon continued its fabulousness with me playing my guitar and then sleeping in the sun, followed by a bit more shopping.

then i returned home to begin the bob marley search and low and behold!!! someone stuck it in the T section of my dad's cd collection (right near james taylor and tenthousand maniacs). <<>>! but its all good. BOB HAS RETURNED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we can all sleep soundly tonight knowing that he and i have been reunited once again.

i love you, bob.

i'm so exhausted. hitting the beach with los mcmani tomorrow. stoked.

night!

(let's hear it for steve miller.)

well today was fabulous. i woke up around 930, biked, showered, dressed, and played my guitar until matt, kev, and andy (gould) arrived around 1. (andy decided to come down from his tree and wash off the war paint.) off to the beach we went, in el carro nuevo de los mcmani. saturn ion, very nice. badass. on the way there, we listened to "Songs that Remind Andy of Summer," a one-of-akind mix including classic summer hits with some christian rock and "my jesus, my savior." hahaha good times. we didn't even get that lost! no body wanted to go to [white trash] scarborough (plus, you know the batulism there), so we arrived at narragansett beach at 2 on the dot. (thus, we made out goal! well, my goal) we pay to park, pay to get in, finally set up a spot, and andy's like ok lets gooooooo. lol :) gotta love it. andy took off his shirt and we all got burned. haha it wasnt that bad, and he probably got some color today because it was a lot nicer today than yesterday! at least, no clouds in the sky. still a bit windy, but matt was able to go in the water. then 50 seconds later came back out and proceeded to roll in the sand. then they enjoyed drawing pictures of [edited] and my name plus a heart in the sand. lovely, just lovely. then we, of course, had to take some pictures for the website! sexy, sexy. then matt and i walked along the water for a while. when we got back it was a little after 4 and we packed up and went to grab some grub. a dozen clamcakes later, we longed to climb on some rocks, but decided to avoid a gang fight ("tribe fight"). we then started our return to mi casa, listening to a mix compiled of mostly weezer and sublime. fabulous. matt gave me our pictures for el hendi semi. oh man, my calves are diesel and my hair is like... off to the side, but it's still good! matt's jolly. all in all, a great afternoon.

came home, practiced some more guitar, then lesson from 7-8. oh. also today i scheduled a hair appointment for friday at dellaria in gc. ugh. i love having my hair done, and it desperately needs a trim, but it's so going to drain my schecter fund by a few [plus one] benjamins. shittttttttttttttttt.

i need a fucking job!

9 days.

GUSTER!

* Tuesday, June 24 *
City Hall Plaza (Government Center)
One City Hall Plaza
Boston, MA 02201
* 7:00 PM *
FREE!

i want to goooooooooooooo!!!

i just stopped caring. i'm so sick of petty little shit and i'm just going to stop caring about any petty little shit i come across. i'm in a bad mood because it's raining for the 39th day in the past 42 days, and my ark is not yet complete. hah, humor. gotta love it.

and today was such a good day too. i went to bed around 2 this morning after a very nice evening with matt mcmanus lol oh man! also last night i started watching vh1's 100 greatest songs of the past 25 years. man, those vh1 shows are sooooo addicting! like, i can never stop watching one once i start! you know the ones i'm talking about- all the behind the musics and 100 greatest's. i mean, just forget it. i hardly ever watch tv, except for friends and that 70's show (oh, and all the old real world repeats- i just love those summer marathons!!!), but i'd say a rough 50% of my time in front of the tube is spend watching those damn vh1 specials. i don't know what it is! but even if there's like a behind the music on like... big pun... i get sucked into the show as if it's a vacuum!!! i sit there, and the narrator will say some random fact and ill just be like "wow! i never knew that about [insert music artist here]!" and then when the show is over, i have a newfound respect for that artist. it's so bad. i can't believe i'm actually telling you this! so i watched all of songs 61-40, and i am eagerly anticipating the moment they reveal numero uno.

soooooo i have no life. it's a good thing matt managed to tear me away, otherwise i would have watched an hour-long special on rock stars and plastic surgery.

slept in until 1130... i love it. went for a bike ride, came home, ate breakfast (however, it was clearly past lunchtime), read a little more of the bluest eye (which has now just gotten completely weird and i hate it), went for a short run (keyword: short), came back, and here i am.

this weekend is going to be a little crazy. hair appt tomorrow in gc, then hanging out with ryan and possibly knasty for just a few hours, then home. my sister's birthday is coming up, and so she's having a sleepover party with all her little friends. i told my mom i need liz and rachel here if i am expected to make it through the night, so they are arriving around 6-ish. haha they also acted as help at shelby's halloween party.... ohhhhhh mannnnn... good times. lol!!! so then after everyone leaves on saturday, i've got my cousin rob's graduation party, then will's graduation party. saturday night is shelby's family party but im going to skip that to go to will's. i mean, come on! blue midnight special is going to be playing for a bitthen sunday is the fiesta del pep band, and katie's sleeping over after that. our mission: convince my parents to let me go with her to boston to see gusterrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!! (pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease) monday afternoon i hope to be going over casa de los mcmani to watch some movies.

jess hearts summer.

this entry has put me back in a good mood.

need a smile? cliff yablonski hates you

< one week.

so the past few days have been uber hectic but loads of fun. friday i hung out with the one and only flyryeguy, then liz and rach at night. it was shelbo's sleepover birthday party thing. so liz and rach were here for the halloween party this past fall; this was like a chance to see all the same chicks and chuckle. oh man, good times. then rach had to leave around 11, liz slept over, we chowed down on pancakes in the morning. and it was good. then i got... harry potter numero cinco! it was delivered to my house at like 930! but i didnt get to open it, i went to do some yardwork for my aunt (yeah money) then off to my cousin rob's graduation party, then will's.

i love will's house. and so it was great. we played volleyball. Blue Midnight Special played. Hajian played. Then the dad's of BMS played. we all just hung out. it was a lot of fun... the only other sophomore there was will's sister allie, and i dont know her well at all. the only time i talked to her was when i went with will andy and her for lunch one day like in january. but whatever. good cake yum. missed shelby's family party, but thats okay. came home around 1015, 1030 or so. talked to matt (mc) for like, you know, a few hours lol. then finally harry potter! soooo good. lol

sunday was church then some real sleep then andy and will canceling on me for joining me at the pep band party :/ (thanks guys love you both lol) finally got some music for the pep band songs, talked to courtney (aka my yale idol), katie d. slept over. fun times! she ate 3 pieces of cake, how admirable! she also was a firsthand witness to my parents throwing away some baby pictures of me! (only after making fun of me for 10+ minutes hahaha) good times.

today: woke up early, made bfast, katie had to leave, went for a run, showered, read hp, sat in the sun. played guitar. cleaned my room. starting getting stuff together for cali.

matt (mc) picked me up around 8 and we hit up gc for some grub. he's so great- he burned me a copy of live at red rocks (since im going there! and also since it is 1 of 2 DMB cd's i dont own!) we had a fabulous time. gracias babe

ok time for more harry potter. i want to finish this before i leave so i dont have to take up room in my luggage with its like 900 pages.

2 DAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

can't write much- so much packing to do... way to procrastinate, jess....

excellent past couple of days... finally got to sleep in yesterday until around 1230. Then made plans with Liz. Practiced guitar for an hour or so, guitar teacher canceled on me, read some harry potter, decided that rye should join us at liz's for the evening, picked up rye, picked up krispy kremes, arrived at liz's. watched made: i want to be a cheerleader ("you're fat! you're fat and you're ugly! now get on the trampoline!") with rye, liz, matty b. (an old flame...), veron(ica), scorp, y el hermano de liz, joe. a rousing game of frisbee was played involving at least 5 of us and 2 frisbees. i was bamboozooled by two at once, thus resulting in a bruised eye-bone thing. (ah, well, it was hot, you know it). after having the blood sucked out of us by wave upon wave of mosquitoes, inside we traipsed, and later rachel graced us with her presence. we had an evening of british humor, with trigger happy tv and monty python: parent sketch not included. (spam skit! yes!!!!!! but liz's impression is way funnier!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) rye and i left a little after 10, and after dropping him off, i returned home.

after a brief chat with matt (mcmanus. note: from here on, any matt mentioned is [the one and only] matt mcmanus), i opened up harry potter and the order of the phoenix around 1130. i was on page 524. there are 879 pages in the book.

i stayed up until 417am finishing it up.

so.
good.

i love the hp series, and i so had it all figured out. yeah harry!

a mere 4 hours after i fell asleep, my phone rings and i am awakened by andy's greeting of "hello beautiful, i hope i did not wake you!" he, john, mike (the big lil bro), and the Blue Midnight Special manager mark (mahk) picked me up around 930 and we headed to la playa.

it was a beautiful beyond beatiful day today. we hit some traffic, took it in stride, listened to uh italian techno (?!?!?!), and were soon laying our blankets and towels in the sand, soaking up the sun. it was great. the water was perfect. there were so many friggin people!!! (doesnt anybody work anymore!?! how can you tell me our economy is still struggling!!!!!!) we met up with bianca s. and her brother mike. the rest of the day was spent resting peacefully and catching some rays (except for when they were trying to bury my hair and when andy poured freezing cold water over me to wake me up at one point).

i came home around 430, started packing. so much stuff. oh man. im so excited. 12 hours from this very minute (7:30.42) i will be taking off for irvine, california. and i wont be home for 21 days. i did this 2 summers ago, and loved it. i'm a little trepid this time though because now i actually have people to miss. and also sad about what ill be missing out on: the guster and zox concert, the 3eb and hot hot heat concert, ben folds, andy's party, hanging out with rach liz rye. speaking of friends, kieran's away for a month (he left last sunday) and its only wednesday but i already miss him tons.

i need something to distract me. oooo look, a butterfly