10 december 2003
you know that feeling... yes, that one... when, for a second, you turn on your radio, discman, mp3 player, whatever... and hear a lyric snippet that you feel is totally and completely applicable to whatever that feeling is?
i love that feeling. part of the fun of a new cd is to read the liner notes and find good lyrics.
you really dont have to read this if you dont want to.
i just wanted to say that it is so relieving when you hear something by someone else that relates to you, that feeling can make you feel so much better. it's like:: "okay, this is my song." (on the flip side, it sucks when your song is popular)
but when a song is yours, all yours, and you can sit there- in your car, in your room, in your headphones- and repeat it, and never get sick of it.... that... is awesome. my favorite part is 'overplaying' it for awhile, then taking a break of a month or two. then going back to it. it's like an old friend. understanding. there (if not always there)
for once though, i would love to just climb inside my own mind, and write something meaningful. i need to be more creative. i think this is the result of a scientific mind. i am completely inable to write something worthwhile. i can't seem to step back from reality, draw that fine line between here and there, and sit back to let the creative thoughts roll in. something is always rushing through my mind: should i be sitting up straighter? did i do all my homework? should i be studying for that history test- you didn't do so hot on that last one, after all? are my parents proud of me? am i proud of me? will i succeed? how come i havent written anything yet?
yes. all that. in one sitting.
what i'm driving at here is... i want to be able to write. i want to be able to someday have an effect on someone with words as much as the words of others have had an effect on me. this is so incredibly nerdy, but words are fascinating (possibly as fascinating as numbers? ... ahhh... a debate for another day!) they can be so... captivating... evlusive... ambiguous... enthralling...
i think it'd be pretty cool if i could those things too.
Comments (3)
I know exactly what you mean, love. It's funny how people can be feeling the same feelings, yet feel alone at the same time. And the music lyrics? My favorite thing ever. I live and breath music, and to find that song that I could have written (if I was actually that talented)...it's a connection to an emotion I don't yet know how to really identify...but it's there...
And one more thing. You're awesome. You're a genuine person, and I really appreciate that about you. So what if you're insecure? I am too...none of us are perfect, but realizing we aren't is a step forward that most people have yet to take. And I love you. Like...a lot.
k bye =)
Posted by Becka | December 10, 2003 10:03 PM
Posted on December 10, 2003 22:03
That was a pretty meaningful thing to write.
Posted by mattie | December 10, 2003 11:21 PM
Posted on December 10, 2003 23:21
It seems to me you long for something you already have "i want to be able to someday have an effect on someone with words as much as the words of others have had an effect on me". You have comments from 3 people that were moved enough to write something back.
Posted by Lee | December 11, 2003 1:48 AM
Posted on December 11, 2003 01:48