smileyjess

crazy busy.

awesome superbowl partayyyyyy at dylans. dyl scorp liz rach tim jenna meg dan nick kieran blake matt matt katie kelly brian kyle rye and i all in dylans basement. ill write more about it when i actually have time. highlights include winning, group spooning, eating too much and a vibrating mattress. please get your minds out of gutters this instant. if thats not a cliffhanger then i dont know what is.

school was way too long today, and its only monday. there was a game tonight, we more than doubled the other teams score. rock on. another game tomorrow night tambien. but first an acadec scrimmage ::dies:: whatever, its just a scrimmage right? nothing counts..... added bonus: i get to leave school early.

winter ball is on friday. we get out at 12. hooray. i hope they dont really think itll take me 7 hours to get ready. they shall be sorely disappointed. (p.s. i'm wearing a cape!!! or... a shawl.... whichever you call it. it has a nice spin factor to it, though!!!)

yeah so. need to open my backpack, do my hw, then do acadec stuff. blah. all i really want to do is sleep. and maybe eat, too. oh, and listen to dave matthews. or or or! learn to play some new dmb tunes. i can think of a million things i'd rather do right now than take out the analysis, chem, hist, english, religion, spanish books. ah... i digress....

sweet dreams loves

another game tonight, it went well, the 'rents showed up, that was a pleasant surprise. i really wish i was more confident in my playing. i knew those two songs that haj played on my guitar, i could have played them. arrgh. whatever. next time.....

acadec scrimmage today. HAH! but it was superfabulous because i got to see kayls and cait!!! they are awesome. heard some great stories about a recent mgm2 filming fiasco involving cops and rifles. the tests themselves went positively awful, but the acadec day isnt until 7 march, so... i'm not worried. yet.

found out today that i'll be representin' in the renaissance games. very stoked. hope i dont suck.

ugh i know this another short one but i havent done any work at all tonight and im just so emotionally exhausted that i think i might be able to get to sleep if i hurry.

sweet dreams

woke up this morning wishing i could crawl back into bed. but if i crawled back into bed every morning that i wish i could... i wouldn't be in school often. or ever. super rainy last night, we lost power. i couldn't sleep at all and when i did actually sleep it was not good. i remember having a nightmare about receiving 2 deficiencies. felt positively awful during b and c and went home sick before analysis. took some medicine and crashed. just. crashed. (that last part was real life jess)

i wicked just want this week to end. i have had a perpetual headache. hooray for tylenol. wb on friday night will be mucho fun, so i'm looking forward to that. got some people coming over for pictures etc before, then spending the night at veronicas. saturday i plan on sleeping the day away, then buying the amp, then going to nicks to test it out. i also want one of these. does that make me a bad person? it's clearly quite ridiculous, not to mention superfluous. but it's also so pretty.

i can't take chemistry anymore. everyone understands this chapter except for me. wicked stressing. test on monday.

on a good note, my pegasus project is coming together nicely. which is cool, considering how much i have not been working on it. ugh, pegasus. my sister didn't get accepted into that for 7th grade. we havent told her yet. she's not going to take it well.... i feel awful about it. just terrible. all she's wanted to do is leave the school she's in right now since she was in 2nd grade or so. and now she's stuck there for another 2 years, while one of her best friends gets to go to school. ouch. 7th and 8th grades were hard enough with my best friend. i don't want to be around when my parents break the news to her. plus now i'm feeling major guilt because she and i havent been on the best terms lately. ...oh man...

so sorry if this was a letdown. these are just the things that have been consuming my time lately. regardless of ... everything... there is at least one or two stable things in my life that i choose not to reflect on here just because i would like to keep them all for myself.

please know that these things make me very happy.
i will buy you a garden
where your flowers can bloom.

much better day today... effed up a chem lab but whatever. it was tres cool when the base caused my fingers to go all tingly... and the way the acid ate through the floor when i accidentally spilled some from the buret was probably the coolest thing i've seen so far this year in ap chem. seriously.

random stuff:
it's amazing how much listening to john mayer is cheering me up. i wish i had tickets.

bru played janet jackson today. i think hell has officially frozen over. thank god it was not the whole thing. i nearly died.

hah! si and i had dance class together today in gym. he wore his sweatband, it was excellent. i suck. whatever it's better than team handball or badmitten. pshya.

wb is tomorrow and i dont have jewelry. awesome. i need to go shopping tomorrow.

this is my gangster of a date. the pic is kind of dark, but take my word for it when i say ill be the luckiest girl at the winter ball. :) two claps for andy.

while we're talking about wb's in general, dan is a complete stud.*
*he said i could only put this picture (circa 1989?) up if i included the fact that he is, indeed, a stud.

... i guess that's all folks ...

andy and i and liz and scott

oh man where to begin? yesterday was all around fabulous. it snowed! and of course i got pissed. everyone was worried they'd postpone the winter ball. that would have been que triste. it started during my free period, and you couldn't even see the trees outside from the library window. to make matters worse... i still had to drive home! oh, driving. no worries though it lightened up. we got out early because my school apparently thinks that it takes us 7 hours to get ready for the winter ball. my hair appointment wasnt until 430, so i went over nicks casa for a little while. we watched 28 days later. freaky flick. tonight i'm probably going over again to watch the 5 alternate endings and also almost famous because nick has not seen that! (oh billy cruddup ::swoon::)

later on, liz and scott arrived and then andy. pictures were taken, laughs were... laughed. then it was off to rhodes on the pawtuxet. we were aiming for 7, but there was so much traffic that it took us almost an hour to go across town. whatever, fashionably late, right? :) but that is the story of andy and my lives! waiting in the volvo- just like after dave when it took us a bajillion years to get out of the parking lot (ok, fine, 3 hours, but still!) we sat with liz and scott, rach and tim, jared and elyse, john and beth. great company :) kieran and blake wore their 60's suits and looked awesome. andy and i danced the evening away!

the night itself was simply wonderful. i could not have asked for a better night. it's so cool to see everyone get all dressed up, and of course y'all looked beautiful. afterwards we went out to eat, and i was going to sleep over veronica's but i've got acadec later on, and i should probably go to that. or go buy my amp or something ;)

can't say i'll be updating much. it appears that something is wrong with my computer. can't open/close programs, have to click on stuff a bajillion times to get it to work, was on the phone for 2.5 hours today with gateway. want to throw computer off a very tall building. its barely 2 years old. this is que ridiculoso.

we have a love hate relationship. where i love it, but it hates me. this is slowly transforming into a hate hate relationship. arrgh!!!!

games mon, tue, wed, and fri. toga night fri. chem test tue. obi paper due tue. zox on sat with rye liz joe and nick. nicks casa anoche (i <3 almost famous). homework today.

anyways, heres what i did today: yummy

yesterday was the 40th anniversary of the beatles crossing the pond. let's all just take a moment for john, paul, george, and ringo.

Let It Be
(Lennon/McCartney)

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Yeah there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music,
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Yeah let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

this one was on the inside of a brow set.

"if i can stop one heart from breaking, i shall not live in vain."
emily dickinson

it's still wednesday? god this day has seemed so unbelievably long!

keeping busy this week. tomorrow's thursday and thursday just suck because its like ahhh why can't it be friday. plus tomorrow starts with chem. as a general rule, i cannot handle chem anytime before 230p or after 230a. i should start taking some tylenol now just to prevent getting tomorrow morning's headache.

the band had games on monday and tuesday. monday the boys game went into double overtime. wicked good game. we lost, but it's okay. katie and i started cheering for hot 'apeman' (as he was dubbed by rob) on the other team towards the end there. plus the boys cant make foul shots. end. the chicks did much better last night, took an amazing lead over the only team who could ever come close to beating them. (knocks on wood) tonight's game i had to skip because i've got an aphist test tomorrow that i'm hoping to do well on so as to start off the quarter nicely. started reading sir gawain and the green night for obi.

the importance of being earnest opens tomorrow night! good luck rae and matt!

so what's new in my life? not a heck of a lot. i've reached a new level of suckiness because my 12 year sister has been able to maintain a relationship with her bf longer than any of mine have ever lasted. hey thats cool, dont worry. i find it awesome that my mom is the one who brought this to my attention. lol!

no but honestly... recently, i've been... happier than.... before. not to say that i was ever completely unhappy. merely that i have reached a new level of happy as well. which is tres cool, if you will.

there's something about the look in your eyes
something i noticed when the light was just right
it reminded me twice that i was alive
and it reminded me that you're so worth the fight

((seen at eka's))

happy valentine's day for those of you who are celebrating!

the past couple of days have been crazy hectic, but now i have a whole week off to just do absolutely nothing. i looked up flights to california this morning, but i decided that i can't just invite myself out there 5 weeks after i was just there, especially after my cousin has gone and got himself a job teaching foreign relations (or something like that...) at university of california, irvine. he's pretty stoked. and of all people he'd definitely be best suited for this job... i mean, my cousin (matt) worked for the discovery channel for a few years (ecochallenge) and was able to travel all over. like... all. over. it's unbelievable. he got paid to do what he loves. which is awesome. i think it's from him that i really picked up my love for traveling. ryan and i are going to travel the world after we get our undergrad degrees. and also we plan on driving from the tip of north america to the tip of south america. it's going to be incredible. this is not merely a pipe dream, we are most definitely going to see this plan through. now that i think of it, we got the idea from matt.

so anyways, yeah, so vacation is going to be excellent because i plan on doing nothing. i can't wait to start!! no solid plans except an acadec meeting here and there. i was invited to join them all in the berkshires at jon and dan's house but it doesnt look like ill be going... my mom tempted me with a shopping expedition to the wrentham outlets.... priorities, priorities...

yesterday was excellent. the junior class went to see the importance of being earnest for the first 2.5 periods. rachel and matt were awesome, and the set came out great. liz scorp kieran dyl and i nabbed front row seats. ....should have made signs... because of the play i got to miss chem. score. but then in analysis someone passed me all the homework shit i have to do over vaca and i [very loudly] dropped an f-bomb. (class had not technically started yet) ms. s. didn't care but she made it out to be a big deal, oh man, i got hotface to the MAX! we didnt absolutely nothing in english, and i got to watch bowling for columbine (excellent film- kdrrty and i saw it freshman year) in religion. history ended 15 minutes early because we successfully convinced him to stop teaching. after school nick and i went to garden city for a little bit and chillaxed, then headed back to school for the game.

last night was togabowl. we all dressed up in togas! 'twas excellent. i think i only saw a few kids in white togas! [mine was pink.] corey wore his in a sumo wrestleresque style. rob had like:: tiger stripes. i forgot my camera so unfortunately i don't have any pics. :( lo siento. the game went into overtime and we won. pep band always wins. oh, yes, the boys team won as well. afterwards we all went bowling. i won the first game! rachel joined us a little later with drew and dan (they were all in the play, so they came when it was over) drew had a ninja turtles toga ((::wicked jealous::)) rach and i departed a mi casa around 1130ish. came home, ate popcorn and pizza, and settled in for some family guy. awesome. between her being in the play (175 hours of rehearsal or something equally ridiculous)) and me just being... studious... we have not been able to hang out in forever so it was excellent to finally just chillax with one of my best friends.

zox tonight with rye liz nick joe... corey and sarah are going as well, perhaps we shall see them. ok well that is all for now. goodbye gangsters.

the zox show was incredible. those gangsters know how to play. great energy. the strand itself sucks, too big, too many people, i felt very short. whatever, at least it was cleaner than lupo's was! liz and rye came over around 6, and then we met up with nick and joe when we got there around 730, just in time to catch the tail end of state radio (chad from dispatch's new band). they were fine, i guess. ran into so many people! at least 10 seniors from last year and a ton of other people. i got to see cait! (w00t, that girl rocks my socks) and her boyfriend, larsen (does anyone remembering the mooning incident...) and andy gould. a bunch of lasallians- even the german exchange student! (yeah johannes!) we spent most of the night with corey and sarah (they are too adorable:)). the band played all the songs off the cd (including eventually, my favorite) and pachelbel's canon. bruce springsteen's dancing in the dark was their encore! that made me love them a million times more. the bassist (dan edinberg) was my favorite... so awesome...

ok, now i'm tired.

an all around excellent evening. hooray for valentine's day.

i hate you steinbrenner.
oh, arod.....

vacation has been excellent thus far... i havent even opened my backpack once :)

yesterday was an abnormally fun sunday. usually sundays are for waking up at an ungodly hour, arguing with my dad over church, ultimately succumbing to his reign, then slowly waste away in pj's for the rest of the day, and maybe start homework around 10 o clock. i went to narragansett yesterday con mi padre, mi madre, mi hermana, y mis abuelos. we had brunch at the coast guard house, very nice, awesome view of the ocean, practically right on the water. a bit chilly outside, but i nonetheless ventured for a walk on the sand. oh man... 4 more months.... 4 more months.... i cannot wait.

at night i had to attend the dan & jess reunion. for those of you who remember, dan was my freshman year winter ball date and boyfriend for (as we figured out last night) 3 months and 11 days. (hah, yes, my longest relationship) i know some of you arent huge dan fans, but chances are he hates you anyways. ahhh yes... that's right folks! he's the one who hates everything and everyone!!! no but seriously dan is *the* man. we ventured to the providence place to see monster. he loved it, and i really couldnt open my eyes/remove my hand from my eyes for any of it. it was the kind of movie that you know is good because it has a significant meaning, but did they really have to be that graphic? (answer: yes, jess, they did.) despite the fact that it gave me shivers up my spine approximately every 7 minutes, it was a very good film. some asshole had her phone on and it kept making noise throughout the first half of it.... oh wait, yeah, that was me... huh....the mall was closed when the movie ended, so it was eerie to walk through, and also... we couldnt find the car. we knew where it was (1M)... but we didn't know how to get there. afterwards we ate at the cheesecake factory where we attempted (with dismal results) to assemble our own thai spring rolls.

the night was also a great opportunity to learn several things from dan, which we reviewed before we parted. they are pretty important life lessons, and so i choose to share them with you.

1. never become a lesbian
2. do not kill people
3. especially do not kill cops
4. always clean up the car
5. never become a hooker
6. help dan assemble thai spring rolls

i love wasting away bit by bit.

happy birthday, rachel! te amo!

this evening was spent in the fine company of liz rach drew and later on katie. oh, and los padres de rae. mr m made his famous pizza and we also ate cake and cupcakes. (hooray for both) and i attacked liz for half of a mini krackel bar. yeah. she alleged it was the last one, but i discovered otherwise. i'm convinced that she totally just wanted me to pounce. we watched a good 4 hours or so worth of family guy. god i love that show. i have to agree with drew-- 'da boom' is the best, hands down!

so yeah, i didnt even tell you that i went shopping yesterday. i heart wrentham outlets. we made a side trip to trader joe's, which is probably the closest i'll get to anything cali related this vacation.... ah well. hooray for pecan praline granola.

no one was home today so i did some volume testing on the amp. sounds good to me. also worked on acadec stuff. oh man! this may not be important to you, but it sure scared the shit out of me. okay, so a few weeks ago i had those scrimmage tests? and mrs L emailed the scores to us today. it said i got an 80 on math! (out of 800!!!!!!) i was like wtf! and then spent the next 3 hours or so moping around and wallowing in self pity because thats just so fucking horrible. yeah so i check again later and it turns out i actually got a 520. not that that's excellent, but its also not horrible considering a) i hadnt studied for it at all and b) i skipped 6 out of 25 problems (utter laziness and lack of sufficient scrap paper) plus i totally did approximately 600 points better than i thought i would on the economics section, so that was most pleasing. anyway, the moral is: a 520 is not that stellar, but in comparison to an 80 it improved my mood significantly, and ill never score as well on econ ever again in real life.

wow. that's pathetic. i've resorted to posting about acadec in depth. dont worry guys, itll all be over in 17 days. then you wont hear a thing about it from me again.

alright gangsters it's been an excellent day. i'm allergic to elliot (rae's dog) and have taken benadryl and i'm so effing exhausted now. hooray for over the counter medications.

sweet dreams!!

a googlism on 'jessica' yielded the following results:

jessica is a golden girl
jessica is still here a week later
jessica is so cool
jessica is satan
jessica is a beautiful teen
jessica is going to brazil
jessica is een lekkerding
jessica is the bestest person in the world
jessica is a bitch
jessica is a beautiful girl
jessica is a freshman in college and is loving it
jessica is from chicago and is majoring in journalism with a second concentration in political science
jessica is never afraid to say hi to whomever crosses her path as she makes her way through her first year of middle school
jessica is a controversial sexy model and inspiring actress
jessica tends to go out on the town a lot
jessica is just as picky with her men as she is grammar
jessica is sixteen years old and is waking up from a rough night of sleep
jessica is ready to throw in the towel when she comes across an intriguing personal ad in a newspaper
jessica is the best
jessica is a talented violin player and pianist
jessica is the total opposite
jessica is like a rocket ship headed for the stratosphere
jessica is an idiot
jessica is my best friend in hong kong
jessica is doing very well
jessica is decidedly uncomfortable with the conversation
jessica is well known at our post office and they all love her
jessica is sitting up and crawling
jessica is above all a hopeless perfectionist
jessica is willing to do whatever it takes to win
jessica is creeped out by them
jessica is not a real zombie
jessica is safe
jessica is nude
jessica is a web ring slut
jessica is such a dork
jessica is now ''lady'' jessica
jessica is mesmerized by the virtual playground filled with stars from fantasy land movies and all the people at big burger
jessica is blah blah or whatever
jessica is our centrefold for the month

in honor of john cusack day... read all about it at tom's site (featuring: corey and nick!)

Which John Cusack Are You?

ladies and gentlemen....

today was clearly the best day of february.
today my life was given direction.
today my life once again possessed meaning.
today made tomorrow look brighter.
today a light appeared at the end of the tunnel.

today.... dave matthews band announced tour dates. mark your calendars, kids. 6 and 7 july, mansfield.

i have 6 dollars to my name... i think i'll just be putting in more time at RACHEL'S HOUSE OF PANCAKES, affectionately dubbed RHOP (***knock twice for the real name!***)

my new obsession: ben kweller

it's been such an excellent vacation... i didnt even do anything super, but it's been just so wonderful to relax and not stress about school. although i really suppose i should be: i didnt understand any of the chem, havent picked up analysis, and have 2 major history assignments that i really should get working on. plus i don't even know my spanish homework. whatever. it's not like spanish is even a real class.

it snowed a few days ago (remember? i shoveled! whoa!) but yesterday and today it was in the mid 40's, so i've busted out the flip flops and i refuse to put them back. yesterday i spent a most enjoyable afternoon in nick's company. caught a flick and food, and later met up with corey (who had just snuck out of sarah's house as her mom came home unexpectedly). crazy cats.

ryan wrote his name in the street with mustard last night. i'm really sorry that i missed that.

so yes... today... i woke up early (10) and hit up the cranston public library to get my study on. good times. actually all i did was re-read night. so much for the commencement of the aforementioned history projects.... whatever. they'll get done....... hopefully....

actually, i was quite productive this vaca for acadec. i found out i'm not actually on the team team, which is fine by me. i still get to compete, and i am still eligible to win awards/scholarships, it's just that my scores wont count towards the team's score. so i think it's excellent because now i dont have any pressure to do well for the team. and plus, i still have next year. whatever. all i care about is that academic decathlon is on my transcript.

guys, i wanna go to the bonnaroo festival. please pause for a moment to fully soak in this lineup:

In addition to Dave Matthews and Friends, the 2004 Bonnaroo Confirmed
Artists are:

The Dead
Bob Dylan
Trey Anastasio
Willie Nelson
David Byrne
Primus
Wilco
Burning Spear
String Cheese Incident
Ani DiFranco
moe.
Gov't Mule
Los Lobos
Galactic
Yo La Tengo
Femi Kuti
Medeski Martin & Wood
Gomez
Yonder Mountain String Band
Damien Rice
North Mississippi Allstars Hill Country Review
Beth Orton
My Morning Jacket
Gillian Welch
The Del McCoury Band
Taj Mahal
Sam Bush Band
Vida Blue feat. the Spam Allstars
Los Lonely Boys
Grandaddy
Kings of Leon
Bill Laswell's Material
Soulive
Neko Case
Calexico
Leftover Salmon
Cut Chemist
Chris Robinson & New Earth Mud
Umphrey's McGee
Maroon5
The Black Keys
Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra
The Bad Plus
Marc Broussard
Donovan Frankenreiter
Blue Merle

can we say:: yummy?

even though i'm exhausted, i'm sitting here at my computer and don't really feel like turning off my newly downloaded ben kweller mp3s... (listening to 'in other words' right now...) i'm gathering a big ol' gang to go see him on april 9th (a mere 4 days after my 17th birthday) at the strand. so contact me if you are going/want to go.

went over rachel's tonight to just chillax. (liz had to babysit so rae was stuck with just me.) we (well, i) drove to panera for a bagel and chai (and she had a pecan brownie and mocha, if you're wondering), and then we settled in to watch donnie darko. a very good flick. highly recommended. i think i may need to watch it yet another time in order to really fully comprehend it... yeah, it's one of those thought-provoking films. you know how *those* go. i proceeded to consume aproximadamente 600 calories worth of gummy candy. nice work, jess. but let me just stake my claim to jake gyllenhaal-- i loved him way back in october sky. so there, all you dd admirers. take that, (whip cracking noise)!

but yes, so my exhaustion is all encompassing. i figure i should take advantage of this sleep, right? god knows it probably wont come around again for another 6 weeks (april vacation) or so. hopefully ill be in cali.

wouldnt it be nice...

flexible? hahahahahhaha good one.

not a lot went down today... a relatively low key saturday... i had set my alarm for 9 and eerily that 'mad world' song from donnie darko was playing. um freakish much? it'll only be a matter of time before i start seeing frank the rabbit, i suppose. additionally, time travel would be trippy. does anyone even know who does that song? it sounds remarkably like rem but i dont think it is actually them. hrm...

yes well then i actually attempted to do some tarea. i suppose it went alright. i still have mas hacer. oh, and if you know what the spanish homework is, please im me (smileyjess13) and let me know... muchas gracias.

it was very rainy today. for some reason i just didn't feel well at all. i think it's because this vacation has just been so excellent and i really dont feel like starting school again. i guess i needed this break more than i thought i did. but i suppose my batteries are recharged and i'm ready to tackle the rest of 3rd quarter now. and besides, only 6 more weeks until april vacation, right? let the countdown begin...

got to see ryan for the first time in too long (7 whole days!) tonight. also i got to meet his new puppy! :) emma, a yellow lab, is a mere 9 weeks old and so beautiful! she and helen (rye's deaf cat) are getting along just fine.

i finished up sir gawain and the green knight today but i dont really feel as though i've fully grasped the story. mehh. too bad. damn i still have to write a poem for obi. i suck at writing. mehh again.

oh! look!

wicked random, yes, i know. but the slater sign? it was a gift from rye tonight. slater av(e)... is symbolic of my love for all things kelly slater. if you have not already, you must check out that website, particularly the photos section. six time male world surf champ ::drool:: and yes i've also read his (spoken) autobiography. [do you have a problem with that? yeah, no, i didnt think so!] so thanks rye!

also on that desk are 4 dmb tickets (andy has my 5th one in his wallet, i keep forgetting to retrieve it!), 1 zox ticket, 2 bday cards from rye, 1 from rach, random g love sticker, random zox sticker, a necklace i bought on the champs elysees, over 100 fortunes from take out chinese dinners (yeah, we ordered out a lot when my mom was taking night courses at providence college heh heh), sublime stuff, lyrics to songs including: jessica by jewel, hold on by sarah mclachlan, jane says by janes addiction, both sides now by joni mitchell, have i told you lately (that i love you) by rod stewart, all along the watchtower by bob dylan for jimi hendrix (as covered by dave), crush by dmb. poems by frost and cummings and rye. a picture of my mom dad sis and i that was taken at a wedding we went to over the summer. tuckerman's ravine is the trail my dad and i take when we climb mt washington. a card from auntie chu. kiss by the hotel deville by doisneau. buy nothing day stuff. a ticket from 311. a ticket from the secret garden. serendipity 3 in NYC (best restaurant everrrrr). bessie the cow. a van gogh postcard. a note from nick. a ticket from the wallflowers. a card that i received in the little blue tiffanys box from my rents on my 16th birthday. spongebob. l'hermitage in france. a ticket from the wallflowers. an email about ninjas from kdrrty. mitch hedberg quotes. the lorax.

gosh. so random, but it all makes so much sense to me. i dont have the heart to take anything down. i ran out of room a few months ago.

i'm tired. nighty night.

happy mardi gras eve!

yesterday was uber boring. ill spare you the details, but it included church with a massive headache, all vacation homework, and a 3 hour acadec meeting.

yeah first day back from vacation... not as bad as previously anticipated. chem lab was a cinch; aside from the gross vinegar scent that lingered on my fingertips for the rest of the day despite my vigorous soap-lathering.

my mom announced today that she will going to california in april. my cousin matt is currently working with some big ol' disney executives in burbank. he's an amazing mass-organizer and was somehow recruited by someone to organize a fundraiser for parkinson's disease. it will be held on 29 april (a mere 24 days after my birthday, for those of you keeping track) and people will be paying more than my life is worth to eat food and listen to some live music (yet to be determined who exactly). but yeah. so my mom is flying out that week to help out. i'm super jealous, and kind of getting angry as i type this. i know that i really have no reason to... seeing as how i was there 2 months ago... and she wasnt... but still... blah. i want to go, too. alas... at that time ap exams will be fast approaching, and it's in the dead middle of a school week, so... no.

sidenote: i think i'm taking physics at brown this summer. not sure how to feel about this seeing as how it's a 7 week crash course. whatever. roughly 3 hours a day... and i mean that still gives me plenty of time to beach it, right? right! especially considering that it's in the morning and i would probably be sleeping anyways, so i doubt ill be missing anything... except for tuesdays and thursdays... when i have 2 hour afternoon labs... i dont know though it could be fun, right? brown's pretty cool. i still have to get permission from the school board of academics. so yeah we'll see how that goes. i know a couple of other kids who are doing similar studies... so... whatever

sorry if this is wicked blah. i can't seem to find any words right now. thanks for making it this far.

Slow down everyone
You're moving too fast
Frames can't catch you when
You're moving like that

things that make me smile:

- making it home from nicks casa within one dave matthews band tune (all along the watchtower)

- the subsequent set record

- when there are no cops on 95 :)

- seeing dan at an school function

- red sox t shirts, size youth small (located in the little boys section of bobs)

- skittles and diet coke (oyster crackers, fluff, pickles... i could go on forever)

- john mayer

- american made fender stratocasters (in fire engine red, of course)

- sleeping from 2 to 6 (pm, that is)

- chem tests that get postponed until monday

- keyboards with reverb that say "ohhhhhhhh baaaaaaaabyyyyyyyy!!"

- mmmbop (ok, not really, that one was more for drew)

- rye's new puppy

- traveling

- old beat up vw buses

- crush, juicy, el scorcho (oh! secret agent man!)

- 50 degree february days

- flip flops on 25 feb

- "ampboy"

and so many more... but i'm tired and chemistry tarea beckons...

it is positively amazing what 8 hours of healthy, natural sleep (that is... without the help of over the counter medications such as benadryl and/ or nyquil) will do for you. i woke up in quite possibly the best mood ever today. and it lasted all day!

school went well enough, i suppose. it's cool how i am completely blowing off homework tonight. i really should start on the 100 or so page test bank for chem... buuuuuuuuuuuuut i'm instead gunna go for two awesome nights of zzzz's in a row. i could totally get used to a normal sleeping schedule.

had the first meeting of the renaissance games tonight! it's going to a lot of fun, i think. i applied a few weeks ago and made it onto the team. there are 24 team members (mostly juniors and seniors, i think one sophomore). we compete in athletic, academic, and cultural events against a total of 10 other schools (although really only against 2 on the actual competition day). also, this year'll be a good one because we're hosting- homecourt advantage! i'm first playing volleyball (other sports include track and field, basketball... probably others that i can't think of right now....). my academic is math (vs. geography, spelling bee, or science). then everyone does a 1.5 mile run (screwed. see... when i say run... what i really mean is... jog?) my 'recreational' is chess (vs. backgammon or scrabble). my second sport is soccer (vs. basketball- ahh!!). and then i was chosen to play guitar for the cultural event (vs. voice, art, poetry, or essay-writing). and then i'm on the co-ed rope pull team (vs. the all girls rope pull team). the games are on 25 april. i'm stoked. we meet again on 9 march... the day before volleyball tryouts. itll be good because that night we'll be focusing on sports, so ill get some practice in... ok thinking about volleyball tryouts really makes me want to puke because i'm so nervous and so now i'm going to abruptly change the subject

yeah so any suggestions for tunes to play? i'm thinking secret agent man or purple haze right now... but i mean any suggestions would be positively awesome!

i was home alone tonight, and that's always nice. turned up the amp with some hardcore distortion. then i made thai food for dinner. yum. and watched friends. (there is no effing way rachel can move to paris, and also i love mike hannigan!) i'm so going to miss that show. only like 3 more episodes? i'm definitely going to need to invest in getting all the seasons on dvd. my favorite episode ever is... the one with the prom video. no no- the one with chandler in a box. or the one with chandler and monica's wedding. or the one with russ. ooh, the one with a chick. and a duck. damn it! what am i going to do every thursday night at 8 now?!!? ::dies::

but yes so now the phone is ringing. and i'm going to go back to pretending i have a life. and we can all pretend like that site is not on my favorites list.

kbye.

sometimes i forget how much i love this song... but then i hear it, and i'm like 'oh, yeah. i love this song.' turn it up for me will you?

everlong by the foo fighters

hello
i've waited here for you
everlong
tonight
i throw myself into
and out of the red
out of her head
she sang
come down
and waste away with me
down with me
slow how
you wanted it to be
i'm over my head
out of her head
she sang
and i wonder
when i sing along with you
if everything could ever feel
this real forever
if anything could ever be
this good again
the only thing i'll ever ask of you
you've got to promise not to stop
when i say when
she sang
breathe out
so i can breathe you in
hold you in
and now
i know you've always been out
of your head, out of my head
i sang
and i wonder
when i sing along with you
if everything could ever feel
this real forever
if anything could ever be
this good again
the only thing i'll ever ask of you
you've got to promise not to stop
when i say when
she sang
and i wonder
if everything could ever feel
this real forever
if anything could ever be
this good again
the only thing i'll ever ask of you
you've got to promise not to stop
when i say when

hendricken winter ball was last night-- i went with an 'old flame,' if you will- dan! remember him from my freshman year winter ball? (check back later for a pic of us singing the divinyls ‘i touch myself’… it’s somewhere around here… if i find it i will mos def post it…)

twas a most enjoyable evening. liz and rye and rach and bill came over here beforehand to join us for pictures, many laughs. i loved bill's pirate hat. headed over to rhodes for 730-esque. found our table... dan and i were with 2 of his amigos and their dates (very nice) and also these 4 other gangsters that dan seemed to er... hate. (but what else is new, right? lol!) but then we danced it uppppppp (quite obnoxiously may i add- we busted out the lawnmower, the shopping cart, the fax machine, the scuba diver, ball o' paper, tashdance... the list goes on...) and dan serenaded ... well, everyone around us ... afterwards, we went to chariho. (how's that for nice and vague?)

pictures, you ask? you bet!

the whole crew. man are we gangster or what.

me putting on dan's corsage. no, he's not blinking... i think he's afraid my hand will slip or something...

rachel putting on bill's [lack of a] corsage (boycott stop and shop florists everywhere!!!!)

liz and rye

dan and i

rach and bill ("yarrrrrr, mateys!")