i'm on cruise control. i can't focus on anything. i am never in any classes anymore for one reason or another and i am falling behind. this week, i will have 1 spanish class and 1.5 analysis classes. out of a possible 5. i know most of you would love this, but i hate it. i need to finish this year strong. 4th quarter tends to be important. as much as i simply can't care anymore, i have to. it's not a matter of laziness. i just am completely unable to pour any effort into anything (not red sox related). seriously. it's quite pathetic, i understand. but i just have no effort to spare, and what little i have i want to use to make me some level of happy, i guess.
i need summer. like, now. i wake up in the morning and i can still taste march. it is almost may now. why doesn't it feel like it? and why does the end of school seem farther away now than ever?
pegasus went very well; raised about $200. thanks to all- porfit goes towards a school in zimbabwe and american cancer society.
we won last night. 7-3 (?) yeah. big game tomorrow. don't want to think about it.
woke up early this morning to take the madre to the airport. she's spending some time in california this week. i'm so jealous. when my dad and i went in december she wasn't able to get the time off from work. well... now she has mucho mas tiempo para una vacacion (yeah, i suck at espanol now, also. thought you should know) so my cousin is head coordinator for a disney shmoozefest (to raise money for parkinson's disease) and she's flying out there to help him with that on saturday night (meeting las estrellas, hmmm what a tough job...) and she'll just be chillaxing in the irvine/ LA area. im nto sure if shes coming home monday or tuesday. definitely by next wednesday though bc i have that national honor society shindig...
we're supposed to go to florida in july. i'm going to see if i can reroute my ticket to cali, and make it one way. i need to just get away from here. the 'rents are hassling me to get a job, though we think we've got one lined up for me. don't want to say anything just yet, might curse it. but, it involves traveling, i will say that much. if it doesn't come through, it looks like i'll be working at starbucks (?) i feel like such a hypocrite. blah.
i wanted to go for a run today. to work off all the food i ate at my pegasus thing yesterday. somehow going for a run turned into 'sleeping in the sun.' estoy muy perezosa.
i was a terrible driver today.
ive been listening to the same 4-6 cd's for about 3 months now. anybody want to suggest anything new for me? i just scanned my collection, and i think i'm going to pop in californication for a bit.
scar tissue = excellent. repeat x 3.
Scar tissue that I wish you saw
Sarcastic Mister know it all
Close your eyes and I'll kiss you cause'
With the birds I'll share
With the birds I'll share
This lonely view
With the birds I'll share
This lonely view
Push me up against the wall
Young kentucky girl in a push - up bra
Fallin' all over myself
To lick your heart and taste your health 'cause
With the birds I'll share
This lonely view...
Blood loss in a bathroom stall
Sounthern girl with a scarlet drawl
Wave goodbye to ma and pa 'cause
With the birds I'll share
With the birds I'll share
This loney view
With the birds I'll share
This lonely view...
Soft spoken with a broken jaw
Step outside but not to brawl
Autumn's sweet we call it fall
I'll make it to the moon if i have to crawl
With the birds I'll share
This lonely view...
Scar tissue the I wish you saw
Sarcastic Mister know it all
Close your eyes and I'll kiss you cause'
With the birds I'll share
With the birds I'll share
This lonely view
With the birds I'll share
This lonely view...