dudes, let's face it. summer's over.
tomorrow marks tryouts for fall season sports. you will not be seeing me at chicks volleyball.
i dont like to think of it as quitting because i can't honestly say i ever even felt a kind of loyalty to the sport that most athletes do. sure, i enjoyed it (occasionally) and there's always that whole team-as-a-family aspect. i'm going to miss that. it's going to suck to watch my friends on senior night from the bleachers, knowing that that could have been me, too. three years of 'HARD WORK!'s, wall jumps, 100's, laps, dumbass drills, and verbal abuse, all for what?
i'm not bitter, i'm just being honest with myself. i went out a whim freshman year and made it with a nice smile and some (okay, a lot) help from then-senior ellen, my debate pal. i'm not unathletic by any means. the whole reason i tried out was just to keep myself in shape. also, i don't like things i'm not the best at, it's the aries in me. i'd rather run 10 solo miles than 1 lap around the fieldhouse. i won't miss the pettiness, the talking behind the backs, the inside jokes ("cricket!" wtf), the stolen stuff from the locker rooms (ahhaha "dude, i can see the reebok symbol. those are totally MYYYYYY spandex!" ---stacie lee amber clark during butterfly stretch).
i'm going to miss the team, though. scorp, shan, katie, jennan, rach, ash, emmy, stacie. and liz will make it this year- she's trying out tomorrow too. eight seniors to buy gifts for would have been too much, anyways, especially for emmy and stacie. =Þ i guess i'm 'taking one for the team.'
it essentially comes down to how i want to start my senior year. wickedfriggenamazingly stressed out, or just plain ol' stressed out? most people are taking good classes- photography, film study, criminal law, civil law, leadership class, multiple free periods. i've got 4 ap's and an SAT score to work on. i don't want to be doing homework at 3, 4 o clock in the morning again, be it because i can't sleep or because ive taken 4 tablespoons of benadryl or nyquil, but i have to get up early to finish everything. no, thank you, i'm all set. last year i only took 3 ap's and those have left me with enough scars. literally and figuratively.
it's no secret i never planned to play volleyball in college, but i do know i'll play studying in college, and that's kind of a lot more important to me.
and there's always pep band senior night, which i inifinitely many more times would sacrifice volleyball for :)