smileyjess

last night i went was asleep by 9:30. today i woke up around 11, then finally decided to drag myself out of bed at noon. called rye and had to cancel my hendricken expedition because i was in no shape to see all those beautiful boys and feel bad about myself.

so instead i got a haircut. it's just been driving me crazy. it's much longer than it really should be, healthwise. i walk through the halls of school and feel like melting into the wall because it seems like everyone has beautiful hair except for me. my hair looks bleached (it's not) and dyed (also not) and overheated (ok, it is) and gross (ditto). plus i'm just bored with it. i made an appointment to get lowlights in a few weeks because maybe brunettes have more fun. i wish i could go nuts and get like dark brown hair or red highlights or layers or something totally not me at all.

i want to artificially reinvent myself.

too bad i suck at adapting to change. and also taking risks. even when it comes to my hair color. bah.

then i had a doctor's appointment. which, when my mom suggested it yesterday afternoon, seemed like a good idea, but now i think my pediatrician thinks im certified nuts. first of all, i fell asleep in the waiting room (what can i say, apparently 15+ hours was not enough.) then i didn't have a fever. or strep throat. or an ear infection. or a sinus infection.

what the fuck is wrong with me?!!?

my whole body aches. my throat burns when i drink crystal light. i can't taste anything, not even the fruit breeze cough drops that i've been going through all day today. i still sound like a 50 year old three pack a day smoker. i can't hear out of my left ear. i have 0 energy. i can feel a pulse in my nose, and i have bags like no other under my eyes. oh, my eyes. yes. they are fucked up. he said the whites looked yellow, and i need to go in for bloodwork tomorrow. needles... hotness... not. on the plus side, i get to miss gym.

i'm pretty sure i still want to be a pediatrician. i loved being there- i didn't even mind being in the waiting room. plus, i got a lollipop with a choke-free handle on it. it really doesnt get any better than that!

afterwards i went to laurens house to study for calc. i think i did 4, maybe 5 problems, and i was there for about 2 horas. corey was there too, but he was doing his upenn app. he bribed me with a lexus to write his essay ("why upenn?" ... i think i would write "why not?") lauren was stressing out way more than she needed to be... poor thing. she must have forgotten how much she rocks my socks. (hahaha corey too!!) lau's dad brought home casertas and we chowed and chatted and it was awesome. plus i got to hang out with jasmine, rocky, petey and gracie, the last of whom weighs a whopping 4 pounds at full growth.

now i am home and exhausted beyond belief. i am going to just watch the debate now and enjoy witnessing the president make a complete ass of himself. god knows i need something to smile about.

and also i want jujyfruits. hop on it will ya?