smileyjess

the house to myself tonight. mom's away this week, dad and shel are at some orchestra thing. took a delicious nap this afternoon, currently watching the game, tasting the egg beaters, red pepper, and tomato omelet i'm going to make in just a few minutes...

i wish i had more energy to write right now. i know i've definitely been lacking lately, i'm sorry. it's just... i don't know... things have just been so messed up and i hate thinking about them so i avoid them altogether and don't write about them here.

i handed in The Application today. even as i was placing all 30 pages gingerly in my four stamped manila envelope, i could feel waves of stress pulsing through my veins. yup. they're still there. and what's worse is now i cant even console myself by going over it again with a fine tooth comb. i've got to just accept it the way it is and start on the rest of them now.

okay, i promise ill start talking about something else now.

how about them sox, aye? had me up until past 2 this morning! everyone was dragging their feet by 4th period today. heck, mine wouldnt even walk me up the stairs to my homeroom! i actually had to turn the game off for a little while last night- they really make it so effing difficult to keep the faith. put it back on after they pulled lowe.

gosh, i'm tired again. a whole 6 minutes of updating'll do that to me i guess. bah. maybe ill try again later.