smileyjess

how is it already 8 august? can someone please explain this to me? i honestly thought today was the 4th. i was all prepared to write an entry about how 31 days from now i will move into pc. but, no! it's a mere 27.

insanity...

so i received my roommate information, and she seems pretty chill. i'm a little nervous about it, truth be told. i've had my own room for 18 years, save for a few short months when my parents tried to make shelby and i share (yeah, that didn't last long!!) i like to think i'm a very easy person to get along with, but i know this is oftentimes not the case. i'm a stressed out, high strung, perfectionistic bio major with 16 credits. man, i feel bad for olivia already...

no, okay, seriously (in case she, like... reads this... ever!) i vow to not be a princess, not be a pain in her ass, not be a demanding control freak. hopefully my insomnia wont freak her out; if it does i'll just move along to the 24 hour study lounge, i guess.

i'm so relieved i didn't get a triple or a quad. what if they had ganged up on me!?!? i don't stand a chance, i've lost any arm muscle i might have ever gained from playing three years of volleyball!

i think it's going to be okay, though. really. i changed so much during the summer between middle school and high school, and i can totally sense that same sort of transition taking place this summer. i'm forcing myself to take a good look at my flaws and work to fix them. i'm realizing what is important to me. i'm hoping that come september, i'll have worked out the finer aspects of my emotionally unbalanced state of mind regarding the whole jess- is- going- to- pc- and- not- really- liking- it thing. you know. taking it one day at a time. (my dad bought me new friars sweatpants and another sweatshirt in an attempt to cheer me up about my bad decision.)

college is my chance to start over, completely anew. totally a 'clean slate' (ohhh brother ralph!), if you will. i've been waiting for this.

i'm going to stop being so negative, i'm far too much of a 'glass is half empty' person.

basically i'm going to try to be more positive. and optimistic. and easy going. happy go lucky. etc, etc.

essentially, all of the things i like to pretend i am....