smileyjess

even though the sun has emerged these past few days, and i drove down to gansett yesterday, and i also bought two pairs of shoes on sale at berk's on thayer.... this depression is not waning.

ryan left yesterday and c-town is subsequently dismal. dan left today and i miss that gangster already, too.

today, other than mope, i finished the tipping point by malcolm gladwell, printed 47 powerpoint slides of chapter one notes for my bio 101 class, lunched at fresh city, and napped in the sun. additionally, i packed up a few weeks' worth of clothes, ate more than i should have, said au revoir to a bunch of relatives, and missed my best friends.

oh, p.s. i received my syllabi for gen chem and gen bio. it literally made me queasy. as in i wanted to puke until i spat blood. why do i have no idea what i want to do with my life other than i really doubt i want to end up with a career in medicine? my entire body temperature went through the roof and i felt like sticking my head in the freezer (or the oven, a la sylvia plath! haha, jon) my hands were clammy and i swear my heart picked up its pace.

ugh. face it. school blows. and it hasn't even technically started yet.

while "annhilating" my closet, i also cleaned my entire room, something that i havent done since i left for europe a few months ago. in the process, i developed a stuffy nose and runny eyes. benadryl = my hero. it knocked me out for a few good long hours and also made me tan (apparently you're not supposed to expose yourself to too much sun upon imbibing this nectar of the gods. do you think falling asleep in a beach chair for 3.5 hours qualifies as "too much sun"? ... nah, me either.)

on tap for tomorrow are last minute college shopping tasks (picking up basic school supplies like notebooks and batteries for the good ol' TI-83+) and one last trip to narragansett for an estimated 6 hour stretch in the sand. dinner at my restaurant of choice (cappricio's or cav, perchance?)

at any rate... i hope this gloom evaporates like last week's clouds.