my mania is keeping me up again. i think i'm nervous about the start of the second semester. surprise surprise.
we were facing one another, side by side, arms lightly touching. if i nonchalantly sniffed ever so slighty, i caught a trace scent of the elusive essence on his collar - a scent that will forever be associated with him even if i meet someone else who wears it years from now - and we talked of love.
"have you ever been in love?"
ha! as if! i'm 18. i don't know the least bit about love. i often pretend to, but who am i kidding? i'm sure i could tell you plenty about lust, but not anything you don't already know.
but i guess maybe it's worth a shot. here goes nothing - just a few floating thoughts to practice writing spontaneously. please feel free to add as you see fit.
these should not be considered 'requirements' so much as 'added bonuses'
love is:
-framed candids
-saved movie stubs
-mix CDs
-oversized sweatshirts of his that you wear to bed
-twirled hair between fingertips
-sneaky kisses in an otherwise empty elevator
-laughing it off when his fork accidentally misses his mouth instead of being grossed out
-reading to one another
-lit candles
-scraped windshields and warmed cars on frigid mornings
-surprise notes
-funny postcards (even if you live together!)
-fluttering eyelashes in the morning
-dancing fingertips in your hand
-enveloping arms
-thunderstorm watching, lost in awe
-stargazing on the roof of the car
-making an honest effort to understand football
-actually becoming interested in football
-homemade lunches in brown bags with xoxo written on the napkin
-letting you control my radio even when i'm driving
-phone calls on invented special holidays
-random anniversaries
-flower deliveries for no good reason
-lying stretched out on the couch with my head resting lightly in your lap, looking up at your face
-falling asleep with my head in your lap
-gingerly covering me with a blanket
-filling up the car with gas when i'm too lazy to go to the station
-surprise chinese takeout ordering after one of my cooking 'experiments' fails
-sunrise at the beach (if we're on the east coast)
-sunset at the beach (if we're on the west coast)
-celebratory champagne in glass flutes
-bubble baths (obviouslyyyyy)
-folded laundry
-dancing in the rain
-resewn buttons
-lifting me in the air hugs
-foot-popping kisses
-the good kind of shivers
-unexpected visits
-late-night ice cream excursions
-homemade gifts
-spur of the moment vacations (be it a weekend getaway in the berkshires or a transatlantic plane ride...)
-back massages
-communicating without talking
"no, never," i respond.
but hopefully someday