lest you worry that smileyjess is just that, i share something i wrote about a month ago with you. i mentioned it to allie and gabby - both of whom have fabulous boyfriends, it should be noted - and i think they just felt bad for me, which totally wasn't the reaction i was hoping for, so, please. as a preface. don't feel bad. just... think about it.
what if marriage is nothing more than two people who can't take being hurt anymore? they just reach this threshold breaking point where they don't want to breakup and also don't really want to get married but it is sifnificantly easier to just walk down the aisle than figure out whose college tshirts are whose and hey give me my cds back and just call it quits. throwing in the towel after so much investment is like... i dont know what because i'm bad with stock market metaphors, but just something not good. a crash? yes. marriage is the lesser of two evils. it's like breaking up would be like going to jail in a game of monopoly just before you hit the dark blue rectangles of boardwalk and park place. do not pass go do not collect $200. you came so close, but now you start entirely from scratc and have to dig yourself out of a hole when you've reached its rock bottom. except there's really nothing you can do to help yourself get out. it just all chance. luck. doubles or nothing.