smileyjess

so tired. all of the time.

maybe i should stop going to bed at 4am because i just *have to* watch the last three episodes of grey's anatomy season two dvd #3 after indulging in a night of franzia pong and shots of who-knows-what.

maybe i shouldn't wake up at 230 in the afternoon, brush my teeth, consume one freshly picked greenville granny smith apple, brush my teeth, and crawl back under my comforter at 300.

maybe i should stop letting the cold weather from making my bones literally ache.

maybe i shouldn't have so many nightmares.

maybe i should start eating real breakfasts.

maybe i shouldn't have so many daymares.

maybe i should tell the people i love that i love them.

maybe i shouldn't be such a fucking bitch all of the fucking time.

maybe i should start wearing cover up to hide the bags under my eyes that have been there since i was, oh, four.

maybe i shouldn't spend inordinate amounts of money on things i don't need.

maybe i should lose some weight

maybe everything will be better then.