holy crap, it's amazing how much better i feel after one simple phone call. a phone call that i actually *made* myself (and not to cancel plans, as i am wont to do!!), a phone call for a conversation i should have had a long time ago, a phone call that will most likely result in things getting worse before they get better, but fuck it because THINGS ARE GOING TO GET BETTER!
really, truly. i should know, i'm the one controlling this after all.